Happy Father's Day Dad.....

So this past week has been incredibly crazy/stressful. Its the one year anniversary of the passing of Tom's father. Its so strange to think of him as no longer being here. I always imagine going home to see the fam and his coming in with his little voice thingy (never can remember the name of it) giving me the best hug and kiss and I'm so happy your here welcome. He was always so great to me, treated me just like his daughter, chores and all. :) I remember when we went back there to say our goodbyes, it was rough, we went to the hospital everyday, dragging our children (2.5 and 2 months old) in and out of the hospital. I felt so bad, I tried to keep them away as much as possible, but also gave them a chance to visit with their grandfather. The cloud of death was so heavy on that cancer ward, it was a horrible experience. We needed a break and Caitlin needed to get away to have some fun so we took her to see Shrek 2. Christian stayed with grandpa and grandma in the hospital (he slept most of the time) and we headed off. Tom's sisters came to pick us up and thats when we found out that dad had finally lost his fight. We all sat silently on the trip to the hospital each of us crying. It was finally over. Dad never again had to suffer. I remember the night before getting the chance to say our goodbyes. I wanted to tell him how much he ment to me and what an awesome gift he had given me...Tom. I even got a small smirk from him that I will never forget. In my heart I know he heard me and that he loved me as much as I loved him. There were so many things I wanted to learn from him (he was such an amazingly creative guy). And so many things I wanted to say to him. I am thankful that I have the stained glass windows in my hutch that he made to remember him by.

Happy Father's Day Dad, We miss you and love you. Keep watch over us. And say hi to the big guy for us.

What Makes a Dad

God took the strength of a mountain,
The majesty of a tree,
The warmth of a summer sun,
The calm of a quiet sea,
The generous soul of nature,
The comforting arm of night,
The wisdom of the ages,
The power of the eagle's flight,
The joy of a morning in spring,
The faith of a mustard seed,
The patience of eternity,
The depth of a family need,
Then God combined these qualities,
When there was nothing more to add,
He knew His masterpiece was complete,
And so,

He called it ... Dad

~~Author Unknown.~~


Thank you for leaving me your son.
He brings me life, as once you did for him.
Although I cannot hope to salve his grief,
Nor fill his cup of joy back to the brim,
Know your flame of love has been passed on.

Your memory will help my love along,
Out of pain his happiness to win
Upon the sweet green fields of my belief.
~ author unknown