Welcome to Bonehead City, Population "ME"

Do you ever get the feeling sometimes that you are a complete bonehead?? Well I do, and today was the day. It started out to be a particularly uneventful day. I worked on some school work with Caitlin in the morning, got he kids dressed, breakfast, blogged a little and off we went to the park to meet our playgroup. By then I was pretty frustrated at the lack of listening skills my daughter was possessing at that moment, but nothing to serious that I couldn't handle. By the time lunch rolls around Caitlin is in full blown violent trantrum mode. I am on the verge of tears trying to get her into the car to bring her home and figure out what in the Holy Hell is wrong with her. I had to strap her in the 5 point car seat harness that is my sons and put him in the booster chair. Hoping she couldn't get out, alas she did and was running into the back of the van. My temperature was almost to boiling and I just prayed I could get her to sit still until I got her home. Finally I get the car in reverse and out on the street when I just begin to sob. Caitlin starts crying again while saying mommy dont cry mommy whats wrong. Of course at that point my heart is melting for her and I'm wracking my brain trying to figure out what is wrong with her. She then begins to cry, what happened mommy whats wrong?? And all I could tell her was I just didn't want to talk right then. So I get her home and my son is passed out, I carry him into bed and come back to get her out of the car. So, I carry her into my bed and lay down with her. I begin to cry again, and she starts to sob, telling me its all her fault and not to cry that she doesn't want me to be sad. We begin to talk about her tantrum and how she was feeling and she kept saying she just didn't feel good. And there it was, it dawned on me. My daughter has an allergy to milk and milk products and has been on soy since she was about 18 months old. I started adding milk products in about a month and a half ago, because they say that kids may outgrow the allergy by age 3. So I took a chance. Apparently she's still allergic. The allergy actually causes kids to have very violent tantrums and behavior problems; such as hitting, biting herself till she bleeds, banging her head, hitting the walls, hitting others, yelling mean things to other people, and ADHD like symptoms. I feel so stupid for not realizing it sooner. Its been going on for the last 2.5-3 weeks that shes been completely out of control. I feel so bad for her, and what *I* put her through. I shouldn't have switched her, and kept things the way they were. I'm the mom I should be making better choices for her. I have so much guilt right now. It was the dumbest thing I could have done. Now shes sleeping peacefully, I think she exhausted herself. Thankfully this is easily fixed and I can get her back to normal. I love my daughter so much and I hate to see her like that. Shes was in agony and its because of me. Well off to whole foods when the kids wake up to purchase more soy products.....

Thankfully the girls in our playgroup I belong to was really good about it and they helped me get my things in the car. At least I know I'm fairly safe there and wont be kicked out any time soon. :)